It is a strange thing but you cannot see darkness when you close your eyes. In fact, when you close your eyes, you are left with an after-image, a ghostly representation of what you had been looking at. In order to see darkness, you actually have to open your eyes in a dark place. I don’t mean a room that’s dimly lit, with shadows in the corners. I mean a windowless cellar that’s so dark you can only imagine the dreadful things that live in there.

You can close your eyes to things you do not want to see. But even if you want to, you can never erase the images in your head of things you wish you’d never seen. Closing your eyes or living in the dark will never change anything in this world. You will simply deny their existence.

I grew up with many horrors, being locked in a dark windowless cellar being one of them. And some of the horrors I grew up with are just too awful to write about here. But throughout my life, I have held onto something which helped me beyond anything. It is something that grew inside me as a little boy and stays with me today. It is something that literally saved my life.

It was the burning, overwhelming ambition to escape. To escape poverty. To escape abuse. To escape insanity.

Hiding or running away does not work. The horror is still there, waiting for you. And I found, that the greatest impact I could have on my future was to change the people who were in it. It didn’t mean that everyone had to change. But some people needed to go away forever and others needed to be new people, wonderful people I was yet to meet.

And even if you had a rosy, beautiful childhood, you may still have found entrapment in your grown-up world. Loveless relationships, unfulfilled dreams, a poverty of existence.

But you do not have to be trapped in the darkness. It is in the human spirit to survive but there is a whole lot more to this life than mere survival. It is your purpose in life to be fulfilled. You can only do this with your eyes wide open. Not in the dark but in the beautiful light of day.

Have an ambition to escape. Change the people in your future. Do not accept a poverty of existence. If you do not have a plan to be fulfilled, no one else will create one for you.

Or you could live, trapped forever in a windowless cellar and open your eyes to the darkness, terrified of the nameless creatures that live in the corners.


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  3. Well, good for you– you did escape and I am waiting to read your book to see what you escaped from though you have intimated that it was all of the above. I admire that. I escaped, too, but still have more to work towards. That’s the journey, isn’t it? Another great post. Best, Ellen

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